no more 'poxy oxy'

thursday 19th january...as a result of my medication review i have been taken off the oxaliplatin as the oncologist thinks it would not be prudent to risk my health any further for the time being at least by continuing with it....i am to carry on weekly with only the 5fu for three months when they will do a scan to see how i am responding....i am relieved as i can see my way forward to regaining my strength and weight....but my wife lynne is concerned because she knows the 5fu won't work as well on its own and she's so rooting for me to give this cancer the biggest kick in the teeth that I can muster....i agree but i know also that i have to find the balance between fighting off the illness without knocking me down and out...then i managed to faint to-day whilst the nurse bodged my blood test when she stuck me with needle endlessly to find a free flowing vein in my hand when normally they stick me in the arm....then it took ages for her to coax the blood out of me and she was pushing and pulling on the needle so....well ouch...and eventually i keeled over and was gone!...to tell the truth i was mostly embarrassed because in close proximity to me were other patients and family members including a teenage girl sat right next to me....it's no condition to be seen in by strangers frankly....i want to be stuck in the arm next time not the back of my hand....thus far the 5fu has made me tired and a little queasy but otherwise am ok...